your fingertips across my skin, the palm trees swaying in d wind images you sang me spanish lullabies, d sweetest sadness in your eyes clever trick
id nvr want t see you unhappy, i thought youd want d same for me
gbye my almost lover gbye my hopeless dream im trying not t think abt you cant you just let me be? so long my luckless romance my back is turned on you i shld hve knwn youd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do
we walked along a crowded street you took my hand and danced with me images & whn you left you kissed my lips you told me you wld nvr ever forget these images, no
id nvr want t see you unhappy i thought youd want d same for me
gbye my almost lover gbye my hopeless dream im trying not t think abt you cant you just let me be? so long my luckless romance my back is turned on you i shld hve knwn youd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do
i cannot go t d ocean i cannot drive d streets at night i cannot wake up in d morning without you on my mind so youre gone & im haunted & il bet you are just fine, did i make it tht easy t walk right in & out of my life?
gbye my almost lover gbye my hopeless dream im trying not t think abt you cant you just let me be? so long my luckless romance my back is turned on you i shld hve knwn youd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do
im sure you havent heard from me in a while, most of us have been busy w itp, cip, trips overseas. i just wanna say, jia you for your FO camp k!
im sure that what i say now wont help much, since i wasnt able to meet yall during the times im in school. considering that by the time i reach club at around 5plus 6, you guys are already home or have ended trainings (: before long, ive gone to thailand, having my OCIP. which, im sure, most of the DingDangs have their own itp to do.
i dont wanna know if what ive heard from a senior is true, but i do hope that none of these would actually cause silly misunderstandings and nitty gritty grudges to be held between the 07/08 and 08/09 batch of GLs. that would definitely be so immature of both sides. whatever really happened, i cant be too sure, since ive been away most of the times. but from what ive heard is that mark, cindy and some others have clearly taken time off to go down to help the GLs weekly.
you will never understand what we have gone through as GLs of year 07/08 until you've been through it with us FIRST-HAND. it is not just by going through the blog, that will "enlighten" you on our daily trainings and bondings. it takes more than just reading the blog. its about allowing people to help. even if it means letting go of your pride and more importantly, ARROGANCE. i sincerely hope that you guys have not undermined our trainings by thinking that the blog explains it all. for it does not. advice from a world of ten is not, and will not be advice if it comes from only ONE person all along. we are there and we always have been. its only a matter of whether you stretch out your hand for help or not. im sure Mark and Cindy have been down ever so often, have you turned to them so far? or did you just turn them away? search yourselves.
you have your well wishes from us, DingDangs, a piece of advice from us is that you learn to listen to not just one but all those who have been through it before.
okay. i feel kinda dumb to have to resort to writing a letter just because i cant get to see yall. but thats the best i can do. im kinda worried gay that i wouldnt have time to see yall next week but ohwell..
FO is next week, what i say now cant help much, i feel like a mother, okay, a naggy one in fact. its as if yall are gonna take your exams and im scared that you guys forgot about your exams.. but i want you guys to know. do your best, give your all. no one will see your trainings. they only look at your performance on the day itself. JIA YOU KAY (:
esp for night walk today. not sure if its the kind that has ghosts, but yeah. dont be scared! and im not sure if yall know it, but the DingDangs have been wanting to meet yall as a whole team.. (: all the best.
i just wanna say that i miss yall so much. haha. CINDY ARE WE MEETING UP THIS WEEK? im risking my life by.. erm.. blogging here? hahaha. i see that the gl blog is being bombarded by the 07/08 gls.....
but... WHERE ARE MY DINGDANGS...??
btw. i still dunno lehs. maybe il buy the card there for 5 baht and call yall every night! (: buahahahaha!
BEH HUAT JIN.. i think i really cannot dont know dont care ;P
oh where oh where have my dingdangs gone? oh where oh where did they go? theyve been busy with their studies and games. oh where oh where have they gone?
far away, far away, the dingdangs are so busy they are far far away ah..
where'd you go, i missed you so.. seems like its been forever, that youve been gone.. please come back home.
(:
i love you in the morning & in the afternoon i love you in the evening & underneath the moon
are we going out in termbreak? lets play mahjong, or go slack at the memorial. or just do sth tgt (: okay, byebye.
whn you hve t look away whn you dnt hve much t say thts when i love you i love you jst tht way
t hear you stumble when you speak or see you walk w 2 left feet thts when i love you i love you endlessly
& whn youre mad cos you lost a game forget im waitg in d rain baby i love you i love you anw
cos heres my promise made tnight you can count on me fr life cos thts when i love you whn nth you do cld change my mind d more i learn, d more i love d more my heart cnt get enough thts whn i love you whn i love you no matter what
so whn you turn t hide your eyes co d movie, it made you cry thts whn i love you i love you a lil more each time
& whn you cnt quite match your clothes or whn you laugh @ your own jokes thts whn i love you i love you more thn yknw
& whn you forget tht we had a date or tht look tht you give whn you show up late baby i love you i love you anw
cos heres my promise made tnight you can count on me fr life cos thts when i love you whn nth you do cld change my mind d more i learn, d more i love d more my heart cnt get enough thts whn i love you whn i love you no matter what
this is the song on my blog. (in case many of you are wondering..) when i listened t it, it reminded me about my life. so far, my life as a GL, my family, my friends.. it touched my heart, it made me cry. BUT FIRST. MY RULES FOR THIS ENTRY "YOU CAN ONLY SMILE, LAUGH, AND ANYTHING BUT NOT CRY." once you observe this simple rule, do continue scrolling down. thank you :D
all the days spent in training up for FO.. it is not over. yes. i said "not" not "now". yes you heard me right. "not over" (: cos we still have many days t catch up, even more ppl t join us for dinner and outings.. this time, it wouldnt only be the ten of us having dinner, our kias would be here with us for dinner! im glad and im awaiting those days where by id see our kias in the foodcourts, eating tgt, chilling and hanging out. teehee.
nope, im not gonna miss the little world of ten. because i know i dont have t! we will be meeting up every now and then.. even if we dont, we have each other in our sneaky little hearts. our two whole months of training tgt, meeting each other, seeing each other's faces til we know one another thoroughly.. and even knowing the days of our menses. (yes, girls, we are all irregular. now we dont feel insecure. TEEHEE) boys having their dota meeting and mahjong sessions every time (:
i woke up early this morning tdy thinking "oh shite.. today cannot be late for GL training. 10 am must reach school. cannot miss the bus ah.." and when i woke up, i realised there's no FOcamp! then after that i went back t sleep again. the next time i woke up, i was thinking "ohkay char! stay awake, keep your eyes open. look awake!! go go go! go wake the kias!" then i realised i was at home on my bed.
2 months of training and meeting up for chillings will not just fade away like that im sure. the hard work we've put in, its just like going for some major performance.. cramming everything in and having only a short span of time t showcase whatever youve learnt or prepared. however, whatever it is, no matter how well or badly we felt we fared, it is up t the judges t decide. and the judges are not the OC, the GMs, the AllStars nor the Seniors. the judges are the campers, our kids (:
im proud of my little world of ten! from the first day we met, strangers from different departments, barely knowing each other.. i had never imagined that we could end up being as close as we are now. however, we did it. (: and im glad. mahjong sessions and eating sessions.. the support and care and concern we got from each other. however much squabbles during gametrials, whatever we had, im glad we had our patience tested, strong and well.. the period of strain between several of us. how we managed t overcome it. t prep camp excitement.. thinking about the shit we've gone through tgt made me smile.
many a time, digressing and digesting.. not getting t the main points of the camp. always making our seniors worry.. so much so we kinda get worried ourselves. as the days get nearer the pressure on us t perform is there. girls broke down at times, boys became abit impatient and irritable. each of us having our fair share of tears and troubles. however, we rose t the occasion didnt we? HEHS. i suppose we were too tired t think about anything at night. staying up working on our photoframes, trying t complete everything.. making sure the kias are all well and healthy. thinking about all of their safety.
laogongs and laopos did well in supporting each other, covering up each others backside and cleaning up the shit others left behind.. cheering for each other, helping each other's team get high. we had the bestest time getting the guys t chop wood, watching the guys set the wood on fire (sneakily) in the bball court.. and even trying t hide our logs in club carefully! our axe getting confiscated by the bangala and given t uncle david. with the oth and weijian helping us get them back.. imitating uncle david's nasal voice.. TEEHEE. our blood (lawrence), sweat, blisters, laughter, frustration and all the other sneaky little things.. AWWW.. i think id never be able t find another world of ten with each of our own unique personalities. :D
as for captain's ball. we have trained hard. :D im proud of every one of us cos DingDangs, we gave our best in everything. especially in captain's ball, like what edmund and cindy mentioned. it was our last chance.. t bring pride t our kias and ourselves. however, we are glad that we have improved. from ten ppl, out of which only 3 had experience in captains ball while the rest of us are total noobs in catching balls and passing around.. heehee. i for one started out screaming whenever a ball came into my possession. now, its a different game play.
the match between the GLs and the GMs was tense. i daresay it was a rough match. it was a test of our patience and stamina. t us, it was a chance t show ourselves that the amount of effort we put in training in the bball courts in the afternoons and evenings would not be in vain. and yes. we proved ourselves. because even though we lost, in our own sneaky little world of ten, we have done ourselves proud.
i saw kelly being blocked by the GMs because she was mainly immobile (having sprained her ankle a month ago, she hasnt had the time t go see the doc nor let it recover). however, she still continued on strong.. angela was being pushed around and being slammed by the boys.. mark was banged, linus was pushed.. huatjin was injured by one of the GMs but he still carried on. this isnt because of individual pride. it was because he didnt wanna let the Ding Dangs and the kias down. with all the kias cheering and cheering for their papa mamas, all i could do was t stand aside cheer for the team. and not let anyone see the tears streaming down my cheeks.
tears welled in my eyes as we neared the end of the day. many a times i controlled myself. sometimes, i had no choice but tears just welled when i was alone. be it because of the kia's morale, because of the arrangement or because of any one of my kias. i was touched by my kias and the kias of other groups as they cared so much for us DingDangs mama and papa. i felt really loved whenever they made me drink up too.
id ask my kias t drink up and one of them would pass a bottle t me and say "mummy, drink up too! (:" or when eating.. they'd go "you should eat as much as you worked.. dont worry" and during the BBQ when they actually forced me t eat the food. there and then, my heart melted. tears auto fill my eyes. AND NO. I DONT CRY. (: arent you all proud of me! :D there was even a point when one of my kias had t go home due t urgent family matters. and the entire group of boys turned back t hug him before he left. all these small little things, although all you ppl our there may think its just a simple hug, a simple action, it mean alot of us papa mamas when we see our kias like that. im proud of my group.
the feeling of attachment have grown in me deeply even though its a 3day2night camp. attachment toward my group and some of the other campers. ive got mixed feelings now and no i dont want you all t cry when you all read this. i want yall t smile at the memories we had. from the reserved beginnings of our little world of ten, t the times where we sat tgt at the memorial for sneaky little chats, t the many dinners that make me grow fat, t the many mahjong session that i keep losing in, t the period of tension and strain, t the gametrial and tough tides, t the prepcamp excitement t the REAL thing.
all these are memories. memories im sure each and everyone of us will keep. im relieved, glad, sad.. at the same time, excited for the post-FO period. is this the feeling that the seniors have told us about? ive never thought much about it when they mentioned "your life will seriously take a turn after youve gone through FO." i thought it was a statement of encouragement. especially when it came from my LAOPAH. (: however, ITS DAMN TRUE. i actually understand the feeling. it is exactly like being done with a huge performance.
even though they say, in the hierarchy, the GLs are even lower than the freshies. i know for sure, i do not regret taking up the post as a GL in this camp. MAY THE DINGDANGS LAST FOREVER AND EVER, TIL THE END OF TIME!
come on guys, gimme one more cheer! systematic! automatic! highly energetic! DingDang, DingDang all the way!
we like it here, we like it here, we've found ourselves a home! a home, a home sweet home!
edmund; i never knew you took all those sneaky little pictures! how did you even get the photo of me crying! hahaha. you sneaky little fool! (: i love all the mj and memorial sessions with you all. we will never leave omgitsthegls!
let's give it our all! (: many of us are tired, drained, exhausted by the previous few days. jiayou dingdangs! im very sure when we meet our freshies, we'd be in our tippest and toppest condition. :D
do rest well, drink lots of water.. esp angela and meiyu.. do take care of yourselves. angela's prone t being ill most of the time.. and meiyu, must recover fast okay! (: rest more kay! and im sure you'll shine during FO. you did well today :D take care luh both of you!
kelly must take care of her silly ankle. haha. and rashes. your rashes getting much better alr. so rmb t apply your cream and stay out of the dirty stuffs k!
cindy, your blister's getting better BUT dont neglect it! you dont want it t get any worse. and im really glad you could stayover the other day! (((: it was fun "buah"ing macaroni. teehee! see, take things one step at a time.. freedom and trust from parents is gained slowly. dont be impatient. and i know that you and huat will make a great couple.
edmund must take care of your BAMBOO shoot laopo! hehe. she falls ill every few days. but yeah, you've constantly shown her much care and concern. rmb, during FO, she'll need all the support she can get. must show her that you'll be able t lead your kias k!
linus, aiyah. dunneed t say. hehs. i can trust YOU. just need t talk louder sometimes. :D and rmb t paste the yellow strings! and dont anyhow write dumb msgs abt me!
lawrence YOU BETTER TAKE CARE OF YOUR LAOPO HOR. she's so puny can. but im sure you will lah. hee. just make sure that she doesnt get herself dirty OR insist on going t play rough games when her ankle cannot tahan. MUST MAKE SURE SHE WEARS ANKLE GUARD AT ALL TIMES.
mark's fine. hehs. you and meiyu will be alright (: and no stress k! we will support you all the way! we're all there with you and for you.. JIAYOU! :D
huatjin also luh. you'll probably not need t worry about anything (: w cindy in charge of teaching and welfare, you can be sure your kias are fine. as for you, if your jiaobin can make them high, and everything will be aye-okay! :D
as for bob, our loyal companion and his honourable girlfriend betty, feel free t join us at anytime (: if linus tries t harm you guys in any way, we'll stuff a broom up his ass when he's sleeping :D TEEHEE. night all you ppl!
systematic! automatic! highly energetic! ding dang, ding dang, all the way!
[b][c=1]linus-theworldisblack-Celldweller[/c=15][/b] says: no la u are not a lousy piece of shit la u are my laopo k
hehehe. yay! now i am a happy laopo.
jiayou gls. we're all leaders in our own way. thats why we are GLs. cindy and mark have their own styles of leading us. mark probably have t be more assertive that's all. esp when it comes down t only the boys.
angela has a point. all 5 of us girls observed huat and edmund happily looking at trees and flowers. HA HA HA. okay luh. we can do the dance proper. drill, drill, drill and drill. boredom leads t restlessness, if you make it out t be fun and interesting, it will not seem like a mundane routine t you. JIAYOU.
yellow sunflower v.s. green fat choi & THE SUNFLOWER WINS! :D
this is great. FIRST BLOOD. hehe. the taste of sweet victory. i thought id better savour the moment and share it with the rest of my little world of ten! LOOK!! -beams :D
captain's ball. IM NOT SCARED OF YOU! neh neh neh!
:D
i love yall. from the bottom of my sneaky little heart.
i agree w cindy, mark and EVERYONE else. i hope that we can all really bare our sneaky little hearts and share about almost everything. its being open that is gonna bring us closer. yubbs. im sure some of us had our fill of sneaky little talks here and there. perhaps one day we should have a heart t heart talk. just among ourselves. maybe more for the girls first.
angela feels that perhaps captains ball will actually bond us closer. i think that it is quite true, since we are quite okay with our cheers. just that we need t be more solid. yes? (: captains ball, we wouldnt actually keep playing it the entire day. but yeah, the bonding will be there luh. because for certain reasons, some of us have kinda drifted apart. hopefully frisbee and captains ball would bring us back closer again (:
actually im writing this like so late, im not sure if yall get my point. haha. cos im SLEEPY. i understand if my words are incoherent.
by the way, peter says that he'll teach a purple light song t us. if yall would like t learn it. we should add more songs t the cheer book. ive been asking around about the toottoot song. and we shall try adding in more songs yah! (:
IM STILL NOT SCARED OF YOU CAPTAINS BALL.
BOB FEELS UNLOVED. not enough attention given t him. orh! and i got 28710 for my bunny-hopping game! quick. i improved :D hehe. byebye and goodnight.
im really glad for today! game trial was good. personally i felt that it is just like a bonding session. another training t bond us closer t one another. the test for our strength of bonding has not been done today either. although it had already sneaked a little peek at some of us in a particular station. though today was really fun and all, we really had a great time among ourselves(:
but one particular thing we must always keep in mind is our arrogance. we must constantly remind ourselves not t be complacent. our performance was only good today because of several factors. and we know why... yubbs.
sheesh. i sound like im being such a wet blanket :/ im sorry. but thats what i feel. in BK, during dinner time, the way we talked about our performance today seemed a little bit... just a little. though i must say, we really did put in the effort (: but if we are t suffer humiliation and the feeling of being picked on like what happened in the zoo by the youknowwho, are we able t take it? or even treated like dirt/(worse than)microbes.. such as being told off in front of many many other GMs.. will we still be able t keep a straight face? (not asking anyone t continue with a happy face, whoever does that can go and die, over-high :/ dont show the "cheow bin" luh..)
alamak. i think i sound very lor soh.... -.- i dont wish t spoil whatever mood we have BUT it is a matter that should be addressed. yes. whatever happens must keep going back t the 1st captain's ball meeting w ex-GLs.
JIAYOU GLS! we can do it (:
anyway, TODAY was fun. esp our dinner w alex alvin and audrey, and any-oh-how talk session at the memorial (: i love yall GLs. do take good care of yourselves. like seriously seriously. esp my STUBBORN laogong. can you PLEASE. haiyoh! open wound! later creepy crawlies lay eggs in there you HIGH, I LAUGH. whatever it is, if yall know yall are injured, dont play.. as in, really... what if i step on you with my muddy leg filled with butterfly eggs, e.coli, raw eggs and yada yada? EEEEEEEEEEE. ooh, this is a long post.. :/ hahaha! whatever lah, take care luh. and rmb t DEhydrate okay! hehe.
goodnight yall! i love you! jiayou, ding dang ding dang, allllll the way! TEEHEE <3
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.
In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see."
"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take the egg and break it. After peeling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its richness and savored its aroma.
The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother? "Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity - boiling water. Each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.
The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.
The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water. "Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
"Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?
Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?
Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get even better and change the situation around you.
When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling along with everyone else.
may we be like coffee beans (:
many many more trainings and going outs t come. we're gonna take it more seriously this time and stand strong tgt yah (: rmb the points the seniors have talked t us about and all (: lets do this tgt. I LOVE YALL.
18feb08
Capts ball trng
Lunch at FC 5
Celebrated Desmond's bd but w/o him!
21feb08
Capts ball trng
Cheers, camp songs
Lunch at FC 4
25feb08
Celebrated Jenn's bd at FC 5
Lunch at FC 5
Dance at Moberly
Bugis briefing
26feb08
Lunch at FC 3
Capts ball friendly with seniors
Seniors talk at SALC
28feb08
Photoshoot above Sports hall
Wedding ceremony at Moberly
Lunch at FC 4
Photoshoot in club
Painting Photoframe
29feb08
Brunch at Whitesands
Recce at Pasir Ris
Ice breaker games at the park
03mar08
Cheers, camp songs
Lunch at rockclimbing wall
Dinner at Vivo
Talk with Dingdangs at Vivo
04mar08
Cheers, camp song,
Dinner at FC 3
Talk with Dingdangs in club
06mar08
Aini&Liming in charge
Training at Netball court
07mar08
Sentosa event
Pontens are GMs for one day!
10mar08
Short training in school
Breakfast at FC3
Recce for town game
Meet the Spartans at PS
Shopping at PS
11mar08
Shuying&Dominic in charge
Breakfast at FC3
Lunch at FC4
Activities at Polycentre
12mar08
Breakfast at FC3
Game Trial
14mar08
Lyna&Emmanuel in charge
Breakfast at FC3
Celebrated Lyna's birthday
Captains ball friendly with GMs
Lunch at FC5
Activities at rock climbing wall
17-19mar08
Overnight in school/club
Enrolment :D
22-23mar08
Prep camp! 25mar08
Day 0
Capts ball friendly with GMs
26mar08
Day 1
Wet Games at PR
27mar08
Day 2
Town Games
28mar08
Day 3
Back to school!
Capt ball
Break camp!