whn you hve t look away
whn you dnt hve much t say
thts when i love you
i love you
jst tht way

t hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk w 2 left feet
thts when i love you
i love you endlessly

& whn youre mad cos you lost a game
forget im waitg in d rain
baby i love you
i love you anw

cos heres my promise made tnight
you can count on me fr life
cos thts when i love you
whn nth you do cld change my mind
d more i learn, d more i love
d more my heart cnt get enough
thts whn i love you
whn i love you no matter what

so whn you turn t hide your eyes
co d movie, it made you cry
thts whn i love you
i love you a lil more each time

& whn you cnt quite match your clothes
or whn you laugh @ your own jokes
thts whn i love you
i love you more thn yknw

& whn you forget tht we had a date
or tht look tht you give whn you show up late
baby i love you
i love you anw

cos heres my promise made tnight
you can count on me fr life
cos thts when i love you
whn nth you do cld change my mind
d more i learn, d more i love
d more my heart cnt get enough
thts whn i love you
whn i love you no matter what

this is the song on my blog. (in case many of you are wondering..) when i listened t it, it reminded me about my life. so far, my life as a GL, my family, my friends.. it touched my heart, it made me cry. BUT FIRST. MY RULES FOR THIS ENTRY "YOU CAN ONLY SMILE, LAUGH, AND ANYTHING BUT NOT CRY." once you observe this simple rule, do continue scrolling down. thank you :D

all the days spent in training up for FO.. it is not over. yes. i said "not" not "now". yes you heard me right. "not over" (: cos we still have many days t catch up, even more ppl t join us for dinner and outings.. this time, it wouldnt only be the ten of us having dinner, our kias would be here with us for dinner! im glad and im awaiting those days where by id see our kias in the foodcourts, eating tgt, chilling and hanging out. teehee.

nope, im not gonna miss the little world of ten. because i know i dont have t! we will be meeting up every now and then.. even if we dont, we have each other in our sneaky little hearts. our two whole months of training tgt, meeting each other, seeing each other's faces til we know one another thoroughly.. and even knowing the days of our menses. (yes, girls, we are all irregular. now we dont feel insecure. TEEHEE) boys having their dota meeting and mahjong sessions every time (:

i woke up early this morning tdy thinking "oh shite.. today cannot be late for GL training. 10 am must reach school. cannot miss the bus ah.." and when i woke up, i realised there's no FOcamp! then after that i went back t sleep again. the next time i woke up, i was thinking "ohkay char! stay awake, keep your eyes open. look awake!! go go go! go wake the kias!" then i realised i was at home on my bed.

2 months of training and meeting up for chillings will not just fade away like that im sure. the hard work we've put in, its just like going for some major performance.. cramming everything in and having only a short span of time t showcase whatever youve learnt or prepared. however, whatever it is, no matter how well or badly we felt we fared, it is up t the judges t decide. and the judges are not the OC, the GMs, the AllStars nor the Seniors. the judges are the campers, our kids (:

im proud of my little world of ten! from the first day we met, strangers from different departments, barely knowing each other.. i had never imagined that we could end up being as close as we are now. however, we did it. (: and im glad. mahjong sessions and eating sessions.. the support and care and concern we got from each other. however much squabbles during gametrials, whatever we had, im glad we had our patience tested, strong and well.. the period of strain between several of us. how we managed t overcome it. t prep camp excitement.. thinking about the shit we've gone through tgt made me smile.

many a time, digressing and digesting.. not getting t the main points of the camp. always making our seniors worry.. so much so we kinda get worried ourselves. as the days get nearer the pressure on us t perform is there. girls broke down at times, boys became abit impatient and irritable. each of us having our fair share of tears and troubles. however, we rose t the occasion didnt we? HEHS. i suppose we were too tired t think about anything at night. staying up working on our photoframes, trying t complete everything.. making sure the kias are all well and healthy. thinking about all of their safety.

laogongs and laopos did well in supporting each other, covering up each others backside and cleaning up the shit others left behind.. cheering for each other, helping each other's team get high. we had the bestest time getting the guys t chop wood, watching the guys set the wood on fire (sneakily) in the bball court.. and even trying t hide our logs in club carefully! our axe getting confiscated by the bangala and given t uncle david. with the oth and weijian helping us get them back.. imitating uncle david's nasal voice.. TEEHEE. our blood (lawrence), sweat, blisters, laughter, frustration and all the other sneaky little things.. AWWW.. i think id never be able t find another world of ten with each of our own unique personalities. :D

as for captain's ball. we have trained hard. :D im proud of every one of us cos DingDangs, we gave our best in everything. especially in captain's ball, like what edmund and cindy mentioned. it was our last chance.. t bring pride t our kias and ourselves. however, we are glad that we have improved. from ten ppl, out of which only 3 had experience in captains ball while the rest of us are total noobs in catching balls and passing around.. heehee. i for one started out screaming whenever a ball came into my possession. now, its a different game play.

the match between the GLs and the GMs was tense. i daresay it was a rough match. it was a test of our patience and stamina. t us, it was a chance t show ourselves that the amount of effort we put in training in the bball courts in the afternoons and evenings would not be in vain. and yes. we proved ourselves. because even though we lost, in our own sneaky little world of ten, we have done ourselves proud.

i saw kelly being blocked by the GMs because she was mainly immobile (having sprained her ankle a month ago, she hasnt had the time t go see the doc nor let it recover). however, she still continued on strong.. angela was being pushed around and being slammed by the boys.. mark was banged, linus was pushed.. huatjin was injured by one of the GMs but he still carried on. this isnt because of individual pride. it was because he didnt wanna let the Ding Dangs and the kias down. with all the kias cheering and cheering for their papa mamas, all i could do was t stand aside cheer for the team. and not let anyone see the tears streaming down my cheeks.

tears welled in my eyes as we neared the end of the day. many a times i controlled myself. sometimes, i had no choice but tears just welled when i was alone. be it because of the kia's morale, because of the arrangement or because of any one of my kias. i was touched by my kias and the kias of other groups as they cared so much for us DingDangs mama and papa. i felt really loved whenever they made me drink up too.

id ask my kias t drink up and one of them would pass a bottle t me and say "mummy, drink up too! (:" or when eating.. they'd go "you should eat as much as you worked.. dont worry" and during the BBQ when they actually forced me t eat the food. there and then, my heart melted. tears auto fill my eyes. AND NO. I DONT CRY. (: arent you all proud of me! :D there was even a point when one of my kias had t go home due t urgent family matters. and the entire group of boys turned back t hug him before he left. all these small little things, although all you ppl our there may think its just a simple hug, a simple action, it mean alot of us papa mamas when we see our kias like that. im proud of my group.

the feeling of attachment have grown in me deeply even though its a 3day2night camp. attachment toward my group and some of the other campers. ive got mixed feelings now and no i dont want you all t cry when you all read this. i want yall t smile at the memories we had. from the reserved beginnings of our little world of ten, t the times where we sat tgt at the memorial for sneaky little chats, t the many dinners that make me grow fat, t the many mahjong session that i keep losing in, t the period of tension and strain, t the gametrial and tough tides, t the prepcamp excitement t the REAL thing.

all these are memories. memories im sure each and everyone of us will keep. im relieved, glad, sad.. at the same time, excited for the post-FO period. is this the feeling that the seniors have told us about? ive never thought much about it when they mentioned "your life will seriously take a turn after youve gone through FO." i thought it was a statement of encouragement. especially when it came from my LAOPAH. (: however, ITS DAMN TRUE. i actually understand the feeling. it is exactly like being done with a huge performance.

even though they say, in the hierarchy, the GLs are even lower than the freshies. i know for sure, i do not regret taking up the post as a GL in this camp. MAY THE DINGDANGS LAST FOREVER AND EVER, TIL THE END OF TIME!

come on guys, gimme one more cheer!
systematic! automatic!
highly energetic!
DingDang, DingDang
all the way!

we like it here,
we like it here,
we've found ourselves a home!
a home, a home sweet home!

edmund; i never knew you took all those sneaky little pictures! how did you even get the photo of me crying! hahaha. you sneaky little fool! (: i love all the mj and memorial sessions with you all. we will never leave omgitsthegls!

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