I am posting because somehow I feel that we are getting pretty riled up with each other recently. I might have been part of the reason because somehow things have not been going on well at home. Hence, I tend to be out of focus during trainings and might have snapped at some of you without me knowing.
Let me tell you guys what happen to my family and what has been causing me to be peachy these few days at training so you all will understand the situation that I am in. Ok, its like these, my parents have been quarelling recently. And the D word have been brought out a few times already. For me as a kid (the oldest kid in the family) all the worrying about the family breaking up has fallen on me since my other sibling is the happy go lucky kind who probably feels that THIS will not affect him in any other way. But for a person (me) who has grown up for 18 years in a relatively peaceful family,such a situation really throws me off guard.
But I have since learnt to accept the fact that kids cannot do much in such a situation, nothing that we can meddle in. Lets just let the parents handle their own problems. What I can do is just to pray for everything to pass on and for GOD to give me strength that I wont break down. Especially so when FOCamp is around the corner and I am feeling the stress already.
Alot of people have been talking to me, offering me advices, tell me that its up to me whether I wanna listen and pick up on their advice or not. But sometimes, I feel stressful cos I am afraid that if I make the wrong move then I will just create this very big and possibly irreversible mistake.
I know that some of you might not agree with my type of leading and the things that I do. But please, no matter what you feel, please tell me because if you never feedback to me I will just live with this feeling that everything is ok and just continue with what I feel is right.
Anyway, I hope GLs have a sit down and heart to heart talk. Because like I said some of us are getting riled up with each other already. Let's be honest. You can feel the tension during GL training, esp the one ytd.
I have made my stand, its up to you to decide whatever feelings you wanted to have about me. I just hope that we can all throw away whatever feelings we have about each other and start afresh again. Just like how we were at the start of trainings. The happy, carefree us.
Haha. And remember that you all will be meeting at 12 on mon. Bring a fresh set of clothes to change ya?
I have got a new cheer that I wanted to teach you all. I just thought of it during lunch today. I shall post the lyrics her and teach you all how to sing it on mon. I have got this nagging feeling that the all stars will want a new cheer from us.
D-I-N-G-O!
D-A-N-G-O!
B-I-N-G-O!
AND DING DANG IS OUR NAME OHHH~~
ITS rather short you all can add on to it. I will teach you all the actions on mon.
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